So it seems that I've done something wrong. I did it without thinking and I've hurt the person I love. When I did it i didn't think I was doing anything wrong but then after having it explained to me it sounded pretty bad. So I guess I fucked up. Fucked up pretty bad. The thing that's bothering me a lot recently is that I used to constantly look down on guys that treat their girlfriends badly but now I've pretty much become one of them. I've become someone that I don't like. It really sucks.
Everything is so heavy now. It's really killing me. I've contemplated suicide in an alarmingly more frequent manner than I used to. I've even decided how I'd do it. I think the best way to go is to jump off a building, at least I'd get one last thrill before I go. I think jumping off the 12th floor of an apartment building would be more than sufficient to kill someone, right?
About Me
- Adam
- Adam Zulhilmi, Agreeable, Loud and Zany, Brother of many but by blood only to two, Who loves life, experiences and morning dew, Who feels passionate about everything, Who needs friends, family and gaming, Who gives ideas, advice and love, Who fears desolation, death, and above all else to be forgotten, Who'd like to see, touch, hear, smell and experience everything there is to be gotten, Who dreams of things that are ephemeral, A student of the world, Adam.
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